Bipolar Musings – As the season shifts, my body adjusts and I need to step carefully. My Bipolar is effected by seasonal changes, particularly lighting.

Although I am just fine! Sometimes, my mood shifts for the worse, Sometimes, Thoughts Still Come At Me Fast.

Sometimes, it all comes flooding in.

Sometimes, it comes in so fast I can’t process it all.

Sometimes, it feels like so much to do and it’s overwhelming.

Sometimes, when it comes at me that fast, I can’t retain it all.

Sometimes, my processor is taking it all in and I want to tell you or write about it immediately, but it just keeps coming.

Then life happens and I loose it.

Sometimes, I am blocked and I can’t write.

Sometimes, I don’t even know what I am going to write about until I start writing.

Sometimes, I struggle with just keeping up.

Sometimes, when I read, I can read and interpret it pretty clear.

Sometimes, I need to reflect to get the true meaning.

Sometimes, when I write, I don’t even know what I am writing. And then Kazinga! It all comes together!

Sometimes, when I write, it has underlying meaning that I don’t understand. I just know it is supposed to be there. Sometimes I find out later why I wrote what I wrote or why it was supposed to be there!

Today the flood of thoughts looked like this:

No you’re not entitled! No! just because you are on the cheer squad and your Dad drives the bus you are not entitled! Yes! The coaches ignored principles and focused on the wrong factor and yes they acted like TOTALLY 13 over seats on the bus? DID YOU FORGET YOUR BIG BIRD LESSON?

“What separates privilege from entitlement is gratitude” Brene Brown.

I want to write about Autonomy. I want write about entitlement and want to write about gratitude.

Sometimes I have ideas that would make great plans and I just can’t get to them. I want to get ahead. Gosh, Sometimes I can’t even get to writing my thoughts down.

There is a purpose for this space. The purpose is much bigger than I can grasp. The Good News is, we are on the right track!

I want to shift gears in this space and bring into focus Hope for, Sex Addiction and Bipolar Disorder. AND I am going to back it up with Peer Review Research. AND I want you to GIVE YOUR STORY. I am hoping my friend who is in medical research will help me!

I haven’t had a Prayer Trail Post in a month. I have been praying but I have also been busy…

Sometimes, it is a challenge to write just to keep up. Writing is the way I communicate in the Spirit, so not writing is not an option.

I am only one guy and I want to do more. I truly wish I could just spend my time writing for God, writing for my friends, and writing for you.

It’s All Good But!

SPLAT!