Nope, I never watched Stranger Things. As a matter of fact, this weekend was the first time I ever saw a commercial for that TV series. It must have been because someone mentioned that series. It’s kind of like when you get a new car (or new to you). All of the sudden, you see that type of car everywhere. Regardless, trust me when I tell you, I have witnessed Stranger Things. Of course I have a story to tell about that.

It doesn’t look like something you would recognize in our worldly view. It is of the Spiritual nature. You have to think in the Spiritual realm in order to see it. You have to think in the Spiritual realm in order to understand it. And then? You still won’t get it. You have to just TRUST.

IN HIM.

Bored? Hardly. I mean, I have had more excitement and off the wall happenings in more recent days than a 3 ring circus participating in a parade. We are talking about people whose hearts are so cold, even though they know they are wrong, they justify that they are right by the temperature of their heart. Except for them, cold = warm. Then they call it passion. But really? It is a lack of COMPASSION & EMPATHY.

Imagine calling selfishness God. That’s what it is. It’s the oldest religion in the book.

SELFISHISM

Cold hearted evil actions for personal gain. 

And it has massive effects on others. It is super harmful and spreads like cancer. The more you fight it, the more it spreads. Exactly like Narcissism. It starts in rather benign places and works its way into the crevices. Then it begins its attack on more vital organs. 

It creeps.
It skeeves.
It oozes.
It icks.
It is totally perverted.
It is dystopia.

The crazy? People are actually attracted to this kind of garbage. They will buy in. They will participate. And they will even stand up for it. The thing is, kids are the prey, but even the most immature adults jump on board. 

Why?

Because it FEELS GOOD. 

If it feels good, it must be good?
If it feels good, then you must be right?
If it feels good, it needs to be the center of the focus?
If it feels good, then we should get more?

These are the signs of a person who has a cold heart but thinks it’s warm…

One can only HOPE that the ego can one day be smashed!

That is my story. That is exactly what happened to me. Someone showed me complete and utter evil. In my case, at 7-8 years old (yeah I know, I know, 6-7 but really it is 7-8!)I was shown sexual acts against my will. It didn’t feel good at first. I definitely felt that. It was reprehensible. Even so, my undeveloped brain associated the underlying arousal non-concordance as good. And I took it and ran with it until I was 30. 

Sex became my isotope. It occupied my unsafe space. It made me feel better when I was hurting. It made me feel better when I was angry. It made me feel better when I felt good. It made me. It told me what to do. I even dragged others into the arena with me. 

The Story? It didn’t go well. My life was a mess. Sure, I have great memories of some really great positive stuff. If I focused on only the positive, one could fool themselves pretty quickly. And focusing on the positive is truly a good thing! The only thing is this: You have to balance the equation. You have to look at ALL the results. Yep, good is good. However, bad is bad. BAD FRUIT is not in God’s plan. And that is what was happening in my life at 30 years of age. The results of my sexual behaviors <insert your troubled heart state of affairs here) was producing BAD FRUIT.  The pain became so great I had to surrender. There were good things around me. But the underlying FRUIT was rotten. The core of my <insert you/your here) being was the root of the problem. 

That’s when I landed on the couch and finally reached out and asked Him. 

As I fell to the couch I said a beggar’s prayer. “God please help me.” And he provided the answer and I quote God’s response to me.

IT WILL BE OK.

And that is the beginning of my ego getting smashed Story…

A Beggar’s Prayer 

“Lord, I come as a beggar to Your door.
I have nothing to offer, nothing to defend,
Only a heart in need of mercy.
You alone can cleanse what is unclean,
You alone can lift what has fallen.
Do not turn me away,
For Your grace is my only hope.”

[Note] Excerpt of A Beggar’s Prayer. Hymn written by John Newton